My Journey Through Miscarriage: Part 1

  
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October 30th, the day I found out I had miscarried my baby. The day I found out that my 2nd baby would never be able to be held by me, be rocked to sleep by my husband or be able to play with our son, Remington, who is 2.

Remember the options I did not want to speak of in my last post? Well, here they are. I wasn't ready then, but am now. Dr. Hardman did not want to make me make a decision right away but I knew I needed to. She left the room and Travis and I held each other while I cried, NO. I wanted Dr. Hardman to come in and give the pros and cons of each option.

1. Miscarry naturally, Dr. Hardman said. Miscarry naturally? I absolutely did not like this idea. I had already been carrying around a 6 week old dead baby in my stomach thinking I was okay and that the baby was healthy. At the time of the appointment I should have been 9 weeks and 1 day. That means I have carried this baby for 3 weeks with no heartbeat. How could I do this for up to another 5? NO was my answer. Absolutely not!
2. Cytotec is a medication that causes the miscarrying process. You can have some cramping, lite bleeding to heavy bleeding, and contractions. Most common, but possible to have to take more than one round.
3. D and C (Dilation and Curettage). I asked Dr. Hardman to list of pros and cons of this. The pro was that the surgery would take about 30-45 minutes and be over with. No more baby, no more miscarriage. The cons were that I would need to be put under general anesthesia and have out-patient surgery, there are always risks of going under that are not pleasant. Other cons included, perforation of the uterus, shortening of the cervix, blood loss and decreased chances of becoming pregnant again.

Travis and I talked with Dr. Hardman for a while on these. I chose option #2. I wanted to try this because it had a great success rate. I didn't have to be put to sleep but I could experience some pain with this. They have me pain medicine for that though! Whew! Dr. Hardman stated that her colleagues have had miscarriages and they try this route first.

Option #1 was completely off the table. Uh no, thanks! Option #2 is what we went with. Option #3 is last chance route.  

We leave the doctors office and get the medication filled. I take 4 pills at 10 am. By 4 pm I notice some cramping and some bleeding. I take another 2 at 6:00 pm. By 11:00 pm the cramps feel like the worst period I have ever been on. I finally fall asleep after the long day around 1 am. I wake up and take another 2 pills at 5 am on Saturday, October 31st, Halloween, and a pain medication. The pain medication I am taking keeps me up, so I couldn't go back to sleep. Me and the heating pad head towards the living room and watch DVR shows. At 9 am I take my last dose of 2 pills and the bleeding stops on Sunday around 5 pm.

At this point, I've lost some weight so I'm thinking this is over. We would find out on Friday, November 6, what fate would have in store.


Check out my next post to find out what happened at my next doctors appointment!


xoxo,







To find out more about Dr. Mary P. Hardman visit http://www.wregional.com/herhealth