I am 1 in 4

September 20, 2015. 3 weeks pregnant. The day I took a pregnancy test. It was POSITVIE! We were so excited. We told my family and Travis' family. That day was a great day! I called the doctors office the next day to schedule my first appointment. I got in right away and had all my blood work done and went over the financial plan. It was the start of something good, Baby Perry #2 was on their way!

October 5, 2015. 5 1/2 weeks pregnant.Morning sickness kicks in. I had no clue what this was. When I was pregnant with Remington I had no signs of morning sickness! At all. None. This time it kicked me down! Amazon.com to the rescue! Preggie Pop Drops were on their way! That week was hard. I was nauseas, had headaches, extremely exhausted and just wanted to be home. When my Preggie Pop Drops came in it was like heaven was being delivered! Just what I needed.

October 23, 2015. 8 weeks 1 day pregnant. My Ultrasound was scheduled for 8:30 a.m. I was so ready! I got back to work and realized that I had a meeting that day! Darn it! Oh, well. What is one more week? I reschedule it for October 30th. The day before Halloween! HURRY UP WEEK!!!

October 30, 2015. 9 weeks 1 day pregnant. The day that changed my life. The day I never expected to happen. The day I will never forget. The day I found out I Miscarried. This day will remain in my head for a long time. This day will be a day of remembrance for the baby I never got to meet. I will remember the time line perfectly my entire life. 

• 7:00- wake up, get Remington dressed in his Spiderman Costume for his school party! (He hates going to doctors) Drop him off and head to get daddy!
• 8:10- Pick up Travis at work. See Debbie, she asks how we will know if there are 2 in my belly! (I had a feeling) Leave the office and head to see the doctor!!  
• 8:27- Arrive at HerHealth for my 8:30 appointment. Travis and I are talking about what we are going to wear to Christmas parties. He needs an ugly sweater to win a contest at work. We design that out.
• 8:40-The nurse calls us back. Tells us Congratulations! I drop my things off in the appointment room and go get my weight and leave a urine sample! (normal procedure)
• 8:50-Dr. Hardman enters the room! Congratulations she says! Are you ready to see the baby? OF COURSE!!! She turns off the lights. The ultrasound is ready. We get the picture up and all I hear is "That is concerning". Why? What is going on? The picture did not look normal. I couldn't see the baby. Where was it? Where was MY baby? Oh, there it is. Why is it so small? Why are there sacs everywhere? What happened?
• 9:00- Dr. Hardman has another ultrasound tech come in to confirm the news. I miscarried at 6 weeks. 6 weeks. 6 weeks.
• Time stands still at this point.- There are options on what to do. (No details here. Sorry)
• We leave. Heartbroken. Lost. What just happened?

We go and tell my mom the news. We go and tell Debbie, Travis' mom the news. I call my best friend Tori and tell her the news. I go home. I cry, I cry until I can't open my eyes. I tell our families. I tell work girls. I tell my MOPs family. The whole day time went by so slowly. Slower than it ever has. Slower than labor with Remington, if that is even possible.

I will remember this weekend always. Baby #2 will always hold a special place in our hearts.

The reason I tell my story is because it needs to be told. How can anyone know what you are going through if you don't share? I think that loss is something that needs to be talked about. I feel like it is kept so hushed. People grieve differently and I feel like I need to express what I am going through and let people know what I am facing.

I love you all and I thank you for all of your love and support during this difficult time. We really appreciate it.


xoxo,