Another Negative

While trying to conceive it feels like you're at a theme park. There are some rides that are smooth and comfortable and easy to get on, then there are some that look so scary and you have an anxiety attack just waiting in line. 

The smooth ride is baby dancing. The fun part. The exciting part. The scary part is the two week wait. You know you're not supposed to worry about it or feel anxious about it but it's there, the thought of am I pregnant? Did it work this time? How can I wait a whole 14 days!? 

Then when you start to think maybe it did work this time, you start spitting. You have signs of AF showing up. You start to feel the cramps, you start getting really emotional, you feel like you're falling apart. But you think, no way! Cramping can be normal, right? Maybe it's my hormones changing quickly because there's a baby in there! I'll just take a test to make sure. Then there it is. A. Big. Fat. Negative. 

Today was that day. All the emotions of not getting pregnant come flowing back. I'm hoping, and putting it all in God's hands. I'm so tired of seeing one pink line.  
I want to see two pink lines. I want another baby. I'm so ready to see them. So, Lord, I'm ready! Trust me. I'm beyond ready for you to give me a baby! 

Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken. Psalm 55:22

Xoxo,