My Child is Awesome!

Yesterday at MOPs our discussion revolved around contentment. Are there areas where we feel like we are living in contentment or are we flourishing? This got me thinking a lot. 

One area I feel like I'm content in is my home. We know it's not going to be our forever home so I'm okay with where we are and what we have. I'm so very grateful for everything. I really want a home where it's completely us. Where it is decorated the way we want and will want for a long time. We will be there soon! 

The area I feel like I'm flourishing in is in my new season of being a mom. I shared something with my table that I really never thought about and I just started crying. I shared on how I feel my relationship with Remington has changed. 

Before me staying home I saw him a total of 3-4 hours per day during my work week. I felt like a 'weekend' mom. I felt like I didn't really know him. Now with staying home with him I have seen a completely different child. He's so much nicer, smarter and WAY funnier than I ever knew he was! His heart is made of solid gold. He wants to love everyone, say thank you to all who help him and hug and kiss anyone he is leaving. He melts my heart everyday and I'm so appreciative of the time I get with him. 

You can still have this type of relationship with your young child even if you are working and being a mommy too. You just have to work extra extra hard at doing so. I feel like watching your time spent in different areas of your life needs to be consistent and spending the time with your child needs to be the biggest piece of your pie. I've noticed Remington's love language is quality time. He needs his mommy and daddy and his heart is happy! 

You are a great mom wether you work, stay home, travel, are in school, or having someone else raise your child due to your circumstances. 


Xoxo,

Another Negative

While trying to conceive it feels like you're at a theme park. There are some rides that are smooth and comfortable and easy to get on, then there are some that look so scary and you have an anxiety attack just waiting in line. 

The smooth ride is baby dancing. The fun part. The exciting part. The scary part is the two week wait. You know you're not supposed to worry about it or feel anxious about it but it's there, the thought of am I pregnant? Did it work this time? How can I wait a whole 14 days!? 

Then when you start to think maybe it did work this time, you start spitting. You have signs of AF showing up. You start to feel the cramps, you start getting really emotional, you feel like you're falling apart. But you think, no way! Cramping can be normal, right? Maybe it's my hormones changing quickly because there's a baby in there! I'll just take a test to make sure. Then there it is. A. Big. Fat. Negative. 

Today was that day. All the emotions of not getting pregnant come flowing back. I'm hoping, and putting it all in God's hands. I'm so tired of seeing one pink line.  
I want to see two pink lines. I want another baby. I'm so ready to see them. So, Lord, I'm ready! Trust me. I'm beyond ready for you to give me a baby! 

Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken. Psalm 55:22

Xoxo,